Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Epiphany

Epiphany

Today, with nothing else to do
I thought to dig through the trash heap of a wasted life.
I scraped aside memories;
scraps of torn and faded photographs,
forgotten promises,
mistakes, disappointments,
wrong turns, and disillusion.

Epiphany, they say, is understanding,
so when I found, in the trash,
still living, breathing pieces of myself,
it was an epiphany of sorts.

Carefully, I scraped the scraps together
and fitted them like a puzzle
until I met with me again,
the way I was—the who I was.

Can I keep them, those precious pieces?
Can I go home again,
be who I was again?
Can I do now
the things I pushed aside then
because I was too busy pleasing others,
living their lives instead of mine?
Will the she I was take my hand
and lead me once again into her world,
give me that second chance
to feel the sunshine upon my face,
the wind in my hair
and the exercise my legs require, or

have the years piled up so fast
that the she that was is but a memory
to fade in time as the pieces flutter once again
onto the trash heap of my life?

Vi Jones
©May 31, 2006

Hermitage Urn And Cherubs

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Secret Grove


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Acanthus Leaves In Masonry Art


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Hermitage Water Fountain

The Hermitage Fountain is
overflowing with water...
copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Monday, May 29, 2006

Ease Of Trees

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

Seed Pod Conference - A Meeting Of Minds

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Gathering Of Leaves - Important Meeting

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Late Season Colour

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Light Through A Blackwood

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Friday, May 26, 2006

" FOR IMOGEN OF THE HERMITAGE"

" Deep Peace"

Deep peace of the
running wave to you
Deep peace of the
flowing air to you
Deep peace of the quiet
earth to you
Deep peace of the
shining stars to you
Deep peace of the
infinite peace to you

I came across this in reading my morning paper
Imogen and thought of you .....Love from .....

Lois (Muse of the Sea) 27.5.06

Late Autumn Season Tapestry

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

That Glowing Sky


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Season of Strength - Almost Winter

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Winter Weaving


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Travelling Root Maps


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Red And Green

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Cypress Dance

The ancient cypress trees
down by the sea
are dancing in the sunbeams,
aware of almost winter.
~

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Hermitage Cypress Grove

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Hermitage Conservatory Treasure - Maiden Hair

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Almost Winter











Almost winter.
Leaves crowd the grounds,
the trees almost bare.
It's cold, and dew appears,
with misty blankets,
changing
the habits of the household.
People are sleepy, hovering inside,
or more adventurous,
briskly walking,
rustling the leaves with
their boots as they go.
The sea looks
chill and grey,
green vegetation
gives way to starkness
of wood,
and stone.
A quiet time,
of fruits now hidden,
making odd snatches
of green all the more
lovely, looked for,
yearned for.
Yet the Winter is not
without its gifts,
as they are there,
only not so obvious,
and give way to
self-care and
introspection.
Lovely it is to
hide, blanketed
in Winter's cave,
and then come
out like a blossom
in the Spring,
again.
copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Autumn Leaves And Clover



copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Late Autumn Blooming


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Friday, May 19, 2006

Ravens - Ancient and Modern

(Reposted from August, 2005.)


Lately there has been a proliferation of local ravens, with the coming of Spring and the nesting season. Many of these beautiful birds have come gathering lately, allowing themselves to be seen at close range. This is a real treat; they are gentle and very alert, contrary to common superstition. They mate for life and the large raven, found in the southern hemisphere, can live up to fifty years of age. The oldest known raven was sixty-nine. Part of the Corvid species, they are the largest, and their constellation lies directly above in the heavens at the moment, and is called "Corvus". Before their ecological link was properly known, they were persecuted in England and Europe, almost to the point of non-existence. Once the public were educated, the culling stopped, and the corvids were welcomed back again, to breed again. They are considered nature's tidier, sorter, and order keeper, and this is their ecological purpose.When Corvids fly, they do so at a measured single-minded pace, in a steady line. This is where the saying "As the Crow Flies" comes from; it means to go in a straight line. When nesting, both birds build a solid twiggy home, and the male feeds the female while she nests. Both sexes feed the young, flying out searching for food, and often any excess is buried for later. They are intelligent and have a connection with Wisdom lore and tales of all cultures. Gregarious by nature, these birds can be trained to count and to interpret and mimic human speech. A caged Raven was once helped to escape by two wild Ravens who dug a hole into its cage from the outside while the caged bird dug out from the inside. Ravens have been much maligned by man in the past, though modern research has shown that they, like crows, do far more good than harm. Mostly this was due to projected superstition and lack of knowledge, and now there is more education on this species in general, there is also far more respect.They were included with other animals in the ancient cave paintings at Lascaux near the French Pyrenees, and have had a long association with man. Historically they occupy space at the top of the Tower of London, and it is said that if fewer than six are present, the consequences are dire, so are welcome in the city streets and squares for the important work they do.

http://www.earthlife.net/birds/crows.html - credit and link

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Adventure Calls!

The festivities are over, the performances done, the sweepers sweeping up,
after the gala event. The travellers have moved on, including the Hermit,
off for a taste of adventure. Post or join us, as you please, or make the most
of the solitude! We're off on a ramble though cyberspace with
L'enchanteur as our guide!
copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

























Several people had asked about staffs, especial 'strangle wood'. On the left is the bottom of a staff in our 'armory'. The other fella is named 'Tryzone' and holds a candle to guide folks back to the center area for an evening presentation. Important function, thus a poem ...

Trysone

My heart is a smoldering ember
Seen as stars in the pacing night.
With three fingers alone upheld
I grasp this heart of fine Council,
And bids thee follow, nay invite
Each one to a wedding of dreams.
Come along then as children,
In joy and expectant learning.

Leave your cares and shoes at the door.
Cushions await you – and you – and you.
Follow now the pace of Trysone.
I will guard the portals of fear,
That love and charity abide
In all that enter here in peace.
No one will pass except by me
And nothing leave ‘cept harmony.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Autumn Wedding - Confetti Leaves

Leaves of gold, tear’s delight,
ever white in turning – spin and fall
in splendored dance,
and poet’s hush
reborn.
Speckled lace, a thought or two,
more or less in yearning –spin and fall
which side will show,
and pray for me
forever.
copyright Faucon 2006.

(Faucon's Inspiration on Autumn Leaves and Weddings.)
copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

My Lady Naked

I think as I gaze upon my naked lady about how everything is reduced to the bare necessities—how naked, how bold, and without embarrassment. Let me tell you about my naked lady and how she flaunts her body without being brazen.

My Lady Naked

She is my lady naked,
unclothed,
bare for all to see,
admire,
or turn away
embarrassed, to look upon the lady naked.

I prefer to see my lady clothed
in gowns of green
and flowing robes of grasses
with wild flower buttons,
scarves of ferns
and belts of leaves—
And yet, out here,
the desert shared with me
a strange and sensuous work of art.

She is beautiful,
my lady naked,
for in her
I see every mountain peak
and valley,
every wrinkle,
every crease,
every cloud that casts a shadow,
every precious drop of rain that falls,
every lightning scar.

I love to see my lady clothed,
but when I see her naked
with no place to hide her ravaged body,
I know just how much,
how very, very much the lady means to me.

Vi Jones
©May 16, 2006

Hermitage Golden Elms


The Hermitage Elms are so
impressed with the performances
passing through the Amphitheatre
they have become quite regal and golden...
copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Monday, May 15, 2006

From the Lab Rat's desk

Finally dragged my sorry ass to the doctor today, and as expected I have an infection (I'll keep the details to myself), which explains why I have felt beyond lousy the last few days. tomorrow my daughter treats me to my first ever pedicure, her mother's day gift to me. Feeling rotten that I did not feel well enough to visit my mom on Sunday, but she understood I was too ill.
images aletta mes 2006
Haven't been able to focus my eyes very well or sit up for long thanks to this infection so I have mountains of emails to get caught up on. To pas the time I put what energies I had to my balcony garden which is shaping up better than even last year. So much of it has kept on growing through the winter.
images aletta mes 2006
My lavender,, my Spanish lavender to be precise, is not waist high and in bloom. I've been snipping away and taking cuttings of nemesia, thyme and rosemary to fill in any blank spots.
The sweet peas and morning glory are taking their sweet time. Must be the cold nights we are still having.
images aletta mes 2006
I exhausted myself today dragging home a big giant bag of soil. My father would shake his head at such things, the notion of buying dirt. Took everything out of their posts and with the help of tiles I have all over the place (another of my in-progress plans) used the upside down shelving as planter boxes. Poked holes in the bottom using my soldering iron et voilá, some very nice extra garden property. I was being kept company by dog and cats, and it was a splendid warm sunny day.
images aletta mes 2006
Not being able to use the computer much last week also resulted in my closet finally being pulled out and put back again, resulting in over nearly 100 empty hangers which were taking up much of the space. Now at least I can find things.
images aletta mes 2006
At the pharmacy to pick up my anti-biotics I was stunned to find they did not have the full number of pills I needed at hand and have to go back again tomorrow. Are we Canadians selling of so much on-line to foreigners that we are becoming an afterthought? Well, folks I'm hitting my limit for the day. Be assured I do read my emails even when I do not respond, I will as soon as I can.
images aletta mes 2006
Meantime I will enjoy the frangrances of my little garden and sound of my lion fountains. Life is good.
images aletta mes 2006
So I might be stragling a bit, but I am on this journey, absolutely.

AVAST YE SCURVY SEA DOGS!



AVAST YE SCURVY SEA DOGS!
YOU CAN BE GOOD LITTLE ARTISTS AND WRITERS
OR
YOU CAN FOLLOW ME AND THE CREW OF THE CALABAR FELONWAY
IN OUR SEARCH FOR
THE DEAD MAN'S CHEST!


( just don't tell Heather I've arranged this little side trip or she'll have me and my crew walking the plank before you can say shiver me timbers!)

Ask Anita Marie for an Invite and become one brave and foolish Souls that will venture into the treacherous dark Lemurian Waterways aboard the Mysterious Buccaneer Ship The Calabar Felonway in search of the infamous Dead Man's Chest.

FOR YOUR INVITATION CONTACT (and for your secret Buccaneer instructions...shh don't tell anyone)Anita Marie
gargoyle642001 at yahoo.com

pieces of my soul

A soul that aches...

IN THE SILENCE
In the silence between
darkness and dawn
Lie the shadows of a life
only
dreamed
of

THE MASK
Maybe I have hidden so long
Behind the mask I wear
That I am afraid to remove it
Afraid that the real me
Will have withered away beneath it
Lack of sunshine and fresh air
Lack of love and tenderness
Having taken their toll
Maybe I will find that I no longer am
That I have faded away into nothingness
And the mask is all that remains.

FOR A MOMENT
For a moment
I dared to dream again
I felt a crack open up ever so slightly
In the stone that encases my heart
I thought for a moment that the warmth I felt was love beginning to seep in
But as it grew hotter and hotter I realized that rather
It was the searing fire that comes from being cast aside again Burning away a piece of my heart leaving only ashes and charred flesh
Where love should have been.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

i'm late....

for a VERY important date.... I wake. Those nervous clutchings at my stomach, why today? Think.... what's to be remembered? Oh my goodness! The gala perfomance! Aagh

Rushing, catapaulting myself out of bed, all senses now in overload. I can do this!

Dressed, packed (surely what I forget, I can buy along the way!), see ya dogs, bye cat. Dry toast as I race out the door....

Into the car, oh hang on, Hubby took it to work today. Oh no.... slight tones of resignation creep into my voice. Okay, my bike..... I can leave it at the gate....

Wind whistles past my ears, scarf flapping, bag flying, knees burning. I think I can, I think I can....

I take a flying leap from my not quite stationary mode of transport, crash through the door. Everyone's waiting. Fling myself onto the stage and start....

"I did it my way"


humble attempt I know, but I signed on so late and am so concerned that you'll leave without me! Now..... where is that donkey? smb

A flutter of wings

It’s time to go to bed and my mom comes in to tuck me in. I am getting a little old for it, but I like it. We walk towards my room and I gasp. She stops and looks at me, “What’s wrong?” I whisper, “Don’t you see them?” She looks at me, puzzled.

My room is crowded with pulsing, quivering wings of angels. They surround my bed and look at me. Their eyes are glassy. But they smile serenely.

My mom kisses me goodnight on the forehead, like every night, since I can remember. The door is left ajar. Light from the hallway barely streams in. But my room glows with their soft light.

Murmuring among themselves they gently tell me not to be afraid. He loves me and they will be near. I can feel their hands pass over my head, like adults do when they are saying hello, but with a more reverent manner.

All night I can feel them, watching me sleep. It’s comforting. In the morning only one angel sits and waits. She smiles at me and tells me, she will shadow me all day. I shrug, “okay.”

Jeremy’s birthday party starts with food and games. Everybody brings towels and swimsuits. We play King of the Mountain, Marco polo, and more games I don’t know. Everybody jumps in the pool and starts to push.

The pool is really deep with a fake waterfall and tropical plants. I only learned how to swim last summer and I hang on the side of the pool most of the time. When everybody starts to play water polo the real pushing begins. Kids start jumping for the ball and crash on top of one another, laughing. The angel gazes at me from near the house.

In the middle of pool the ball comes right to me. Before I can jump up to return it, kids from all directions crash on top of me. The water is blurry and bodies move everywhere. I can’t catch my breath. I struggle to come up, but I am sinking. Bodies wiggle and swim away.

I watch my body fall to the bottom of the pool. I feel warm hands around me. The angel has come close and says it’s okay. I can’t remember how I got out of the pool. The water glitters and somebody starts to shout. All the kids get out of the pool. The waterfall makes it difficult to see. A shape lies on the bottom. Someone jumps in and pulls out my body, it’s grey.

The angel holds my hand. Another wipes at my tears. A circle has formed around the body and kids stare and babble like they don’t understand. But they do.

The pool sparkles. I start to shake all over. Suddenly, I am wrapped in light. An angel leans down and whispers we need to go. Golden eyelashes touch my cheek. A fluttering of wings enfold me. A crowd hovers just like last night. I try to see my mom. I can hear her voice. I can hear her crying. A beautiful face looks inside me, without words, I feel safe. An overwhelming love embraces me. I feel a buzzing in my head and it’s peaceful. I drift with the angels like clouds following music that is vaguely familiar.


Author’s Note: I wrote this in memory of a little boy I didn’t know. He saw angels the night before he died. I wanted his story to be remembered here.

Perched atop a Giant Sequoia

Sitting atop a giant sequoia waiting to be rescued, I ponder Heather's idea of surrendering something and shedding my skin. A perfect place of solitude in which to write, but I have no computer, no pen or paper. Surely I'll be the last to arrive for the gala performance. Perhaps a short poem will suffice to get me on the Serpentine Road.


I count the me's
that I have been
since I began,
Remembering the seven (so-called) ages of a man

For women, though,
there must be more
or I, at least,
am rare,
for me's there've been beyond a count
that I would care to share.

The old me is disolving
swept away
like falling rain.
What hurts the most,
I liked her best.
Will part of her remain?

When The Wind Blows From the West

When the Wind Blows in From the West

The wind blowing from the west brings clouds that
herald yet another storm.
When lightning strikes the great expanse
of sand and rock and grit and dust,
we feel the shock that it must bring to Earth's bare bones.
When thunder rumbles across the desert sky,
reverberating from mesa top to mesa,
it disturbs the ghosts of those who lay in shallow, desert graves.
It echoes through the darkened windows of long deserted ruins—
those empty dwellings built high upon the cliffs.
Then, the rain in cloudburst falls
creating tiny craters in the heated, stony sand.
The desert drinks, but it's too much, all at once,
and so the muddy waters gather and race to shallow accepting basins,
only there to overflow, displacing those who dare to live in this unforgiving place.
Lightning dances in the distance—
spears of jagged fury from the sky
meeting Earth's upward charge,
visible for milliseconds,
enough to frighten, to cause us to fall on bended knee
and ask the Thunder God to spare our miserable hides.

Now, as quickly as it came, it's gone, heading east and north
to worry other humans in its path—
to nourish other earthly plots with phosphorenic energy.
All is calm now in the west—the air is cleansed—the sky is clear—until, once again, the wind blows from the west, and the clouds
like charging armies, herald yet another desert storm.

Vi Jones
©May 14, 2006

Respect

A friend, who has now found love again,
was expounding on what he felt at Sakin'el
and our wedding -- inspiriation to be open again.

I offered how important 'respect' was to a relationship,
he was much taken -- even to musing that
the prophetic words should be,
"respect they neighbor as thyself."

So I wrote this at sunrise ...

Look Again Fondly

“As a child,” it is said – or Given –

“With nothing but innocence – follow,”
we are guided by Word and Light.

“Have done to thee as the least of men,”
is the song of the yearning soul.

So I must return – turn again …
I must remember – join once more …
I must respect – look back and again …
and for this I need you,
my love.

Your eyes can see what I cannot,
and hear the cries of passions lost,
and share with me a touch of awe –
again and again,
I will look again
respectfully.

Let me be a mirror of soulful mirth,
a shield against the trembling Light,
a shoulder on which you can stand –
again and again;
please look again
with kindness.

Each by each and in cleaved embrace,
we may know in twain what one might hide
from self and life and fearsome child –
again and again;
most fondly again,
re-spect with me.

Wiltshire Horse - Epona Inspiration

Inspired by the post on Epona below,
here is a link to the Wiltshire white
horse at Uffington, and others I had no idea
about...

Blue Oak - copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Somewhere in the Dark

a poem for the Stage


Somewhere In the Dark

Somewhere in the dark
An owl hoots a lonesome cry
As a man walks alone.
Unsure of where he's going
and wanting to forget where he's been.

Somewhere in the dark
a ghostly hand reaches out.
Reaching for nothing and finding it there
It quietly returns to nowhere.

Somewhere in the dark
a child cries at what goes bump in the night
and the wolves errie call to the moon

Somewhere in the dark
Hides a dream of what the world should be
As a child wishes upon a falling star
and a few dreams come true.

Somewhere in the dark.

A Slight Detour

I'm off the map. I don't know how it happened. I started out from Riversleigh where I'd been resting up, gathering my strength for whatever le enchanteur had up her sleeve, and trying to get my creative juices to flow. I didn't want to do the red shoes with wings bit. That was my first mistake, others followed, I saw the trees in the distance. . . . .but it's a long story and I'm afraid I'll miss the performance, not to mention be stuck up here forever. If you are reading this message, the blue jay, made it. Swoop's part of the story, too. Could you send an eagle to fly me back to the Hermitage or maybe a crane (the mechanical kind that does buildings) to at least get me down (my backpack and red shoes are down the bottom--don't ask)? I'm in the middle of a redwood forest, (sequoiadendron giganteums) stranded in the top branches, up about, oh, I'd guess 250 feet. Swoop will show you the way.

I'm sorry Heather. This is so embarrassing.

I'm that girl, or is she me? (my offering on stage)

I used to be someone who cared- sort of. I wondered what it would be like to be part of that crowd, you know- the one where everyone is happy and smiling and their clothes always look nice and their hair blows beautifully in the wind. But I never could quite bring myself to become one of them. I'm not sure if it's because I thought they wouldn't let me, or if I just couldn't be that kind of girl.

Surely you know that girl. Her skin is clear and flawless. The curl is always set in her hair just right. She has the really great clothes, and everyone waves and smiles as she goes down the hall. That girl.

But sometime in high school I started thinking that maybe it wasn't so great to be that girl. I thought about how hard it must be to have to look good, be good, all the time. And then I thought it was better to be me, not perfect- and having people know I wasn't exactly so, even if they made fun of that. I'm sure she must have wished she was me sometimes too.

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May I Present...Anita Marie

I wish I could perform a poetry reading for you all, or present a lovely work of art or dance. But I can't create or perform any of those things. Trust me you don't want me to do these things. Instead I thought I'd share with you something I've taught my nieces.

At the ages of 4 and 6 they called me up and told me to come over right away. They decide what they were going to become.

I did go to my Sister's house right away because, trust me, when my Nieces work together on anything the results are never small and they are NEVER boring.

When I got there they told me their plans and I was touched, happy and proud.

In fact I was so excited at their 'news' I piled them in my Jeep and we went out and bought them some outfits, tools and even maps so they could be fully prepared to meet their destiny...

As Buccaneers.

So let me share with you a song that we've sung together for these past five years.

Enjoy!
anita marie





Fifteen men on a dead man’s chest

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

Drink and the devil be done for the rest

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum



The mate was fixed by the bos’n’s pike

The bos’n’ brained with a marlin spike and

Cookey’s throat was marked belike It

Had been gripped by fingers ten and

There they lay all good dead men like

Break o’ day in a boozing ken__

Yo Ho Ho and a bottle of rum




Fifteen men of a whole ship’s list

Yo Ho Ho and a bottle of rum

Dead and be damned and the rest gone whist!

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum



The skipper lay with his nob in gore where the

Scullion’s axe his cheek had shore

And the scullion he was stabbed times four and

There he lay and the soggy skies

Dripped all day in up-staring eyes at

Murk sunset and at foul sur-prise

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum


Fifteen men of ‘em stiff and stark

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

Ten of the crew had the murder mark

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum



‘Twas a cutlass swipe or and ounce of lead or a

Yawning hole in a battered head

and the scuppers glut with a yawning red and

There they lay aye damn my eyes

All lookouts clapped on par - a - dise all

Souls bound just con – tra – ri - wise

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum


Fifteen men of ‘em good and true

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

Every man Jack could ha’ sailed with old Pew

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum



There was chest on chest of Spanish gold with a

Ton of plate in the middle hold

And the cabins riot with stuff un told As

They lay there that had took the plum

With a sightless glare and their lips struck dumb

While we shared all by the rule of thumb

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum


Fifteen men of a dead man’s chest

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

Drink and the devil had done for the rest

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum



We wrapped ‘em all in a mains’l tight with

Twice ten turns of a hausers bight

And we heaved ‘em over and out of sight with a

Yo heave ho and fare you well

And a sullen plunge in a sullen swell

Ten fathoms deep on the road to hell

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum

A taleof 1001 words

Epona

Epona has always galloped across sky and earth with her beloved horses. Not horses alone, but all creatures. They are her kindred and her kind. It is for them she provides fields and forests for browsing, nourishes the fruit trees, planted the herbs. She leads the herds unfailingly to clear waters. Her hands aid the birthing of every living thing, singing joyfully over each new life.

Perhaps it was the familiarity with Epona that animals came to be tamed by mortals. It was certainly the association of animals with humans that drew Epona’s interest to them. Their care of her creatures warmed her heart, endearing them to her like any mother watching the kindness given her children. In return, Epona extended her largess to man.

Unlike creatures, mortals could not see her, save little children and mothers dying in childbirth. In the final anguish before Epona bore a mother’s soul to the otherworld, Epona was visible to her. Often the last words of the woman would be, “My Lady!” Mortals began to sense her love for them. As they began to love Epona, they began to glimpse through her glamour to see her. To some she was a dazzling white mare, to some a terrifying black one, to others a long legged woman running with horses. They showed their reverence by creating shrines to their vision of her, leaving offerings of apples, grain and roses.

Only one ever saw her truly, face to face, and he a soldier in the heat of battle.

As men stole ascendancy from women, wars began. Creatures died in countless numbers. Epona knew every one from their birth. On the battlefield her heart wrung in pity for soldiers dying, men she had cradled in her lap as tiny babes. She screamed in fury with the screams of dying horses, each one a foal she had danced with in spring. With the rain she wept over the rotting corpses strewn across her lands. Gently, she bore the souls of horse and man to the otherworld. Epona flew through battles an angry wind, weeping in rage and futility. The eyes of the dying beheld her and cried out, “Mother!”

Though she brought forth life from the womb and returned it to the otherworld, she could not interfere with destiny.

Except once, for a man’s love of his horse. For her love of that man.

His name was Equinnus. For many generations past, his family bred the finest warhorses in the Empire - stallions of exceptional strength and speed, fearless in battle, trained to slash with hooves as its master slashed with sword. To Equinnus war was the dance of manhood, a glorious rondele of muscle and might. He never felt as truly alive as when battle raged around him, Death nipping at him. Those that fell beneath his sword into Death’s maw were simply enemies. Equinnus never thought about what enemy meant. It was his life or that of a stranger, a meaningless entity from his point of view. He was bred to be a soldier as his horse, Cicero, was bred to do battle.

Cicero, the best of the best. The Caesar had wanted Cicero for his own son’s battle mount. But Cicero had thrown the young man time and time again, making it clear his heart’s loyalty lay with Equinnus alone. Equinnus had raised him from foal to the magnificent fighter he was. Together they were legends.

Though it is not for battle they are remembered.

With his last strength, a dying soldier impaled Cicero on his sword. Equinnus was thrown. Cicero’s gushing wound poured blood over his master. The battle frenzy left Equinnus as suddenly as swordstroke. He saw only Cicero. Disbelief paralyzed Equinnus. He struggled to the side of his beloved companion as the battle clamored around them. Disbelief turned to despair, Equinnus buried his face in the blood drenched side of Cicero and wept.

Equinnus’s grief made him an easy target for a Gaul swordstroke. But Epona plucked the sword from the air. The Gaul saw a dark horse-woman grasping it by the blade. Fire poured from her hand as if blood. He turned and fled, leaving Epona standing over Equinnus. One by one the soldiers became aware of her. Their weapons dropped as they stood gaping at her. She turned slowly, towering above the battlefield, raising the sword above her head fire streaming down her arms. As her eyes met those of the mortals, they fell prostrate. The horses nickered recognition, the men fainted in terror. She hurled the sword into the sky. It disappeared with a thunderous crack.

Silence.

Epona knelt by Equinnus, gently turning his face until her eyes met his. Equinnus did not see the fierce eyes of a giant horse-woman. He looked into the deep eyes of a slight, pale maiden. Epona turned her gaze to the fatal gash in Cicero’s side. Equinnus watched her lay her hands over the wound. The flesh melted together under her slim fingers. Cicero jerked, snorted, rose to his feet. He curled a foreleg back, pulling back in a bow to Epona, nuzzling her hand, the hand fragrant with his blood. She stoked his cheek, and turned her gaze back to Equinnus.

Epona knew Equinnus from birth. She knew him as the youth training horses, his face alight with exuberance. She knew him as soldier. Now she saw him as a man. Not a handsome man, but one whose heart was knitted with his horse. She who had loved as mother, now felt the love of woman.

Equinnus raised her hand to his lips and kissed her palm. “My Lady,” he murmured.

Epona‘s mouth blossomed into a gentle smile. “My Love.”

Their lips met in Epona’s first kiss. Equinnus knew nothing more than the woman before him

Hands clasped they walked through the thunderstruck battlefield, Cicero following, his head held proudly. The eyes of battle-horse and soldier followed as the three walked into the sky.

And I Need Your Light

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The Amazon Queen Sings

LUCKY STAR
Madonna Ciccone
You must be my lucky star
'Cause you shine on me wherever you are
I just think of you and I start to glow
And I need your light
And baby you know

Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) make everything all right
Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) yeah

You must be my lucky star
'Cause you make the darkness seem so far
And when I'm lost you'll be my guide
I just turn around and you're by my side

Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) make everything all right
Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) yeah

Come on shine your heavenly body tonight
'Cause I know you're gonna make everything all right
Come on shine your heavenly body tonight
'Cause I know you're gonna make everything all right

You may be my lucky star
But I'm the luckiest by far
You may be my lucky star
But I'm the luckiest by far

Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) make everything all right
Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) yeah

Come on shine your heavenly body tonight
'Cause I know you're gonna make everything all right
Come on shine your heavenly body tonight
'Cause I know you're gonna make everything all right

You may be my lucky star
But I'm the luckiest by far
You may be my lucky star
But I'm the luckiest by far

You may be my lucky star
But I'm the luckiest by far
You may be my lucky star
But I'm the luckiest by far

Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) make everything all right
Starlight, starbright first star I see tonight
Starlight, (starbright) yeah

Farewell, Leonie.

My farewell song at the Hermitage, is for Leonie.
A Lullaby we all remember from our childhoods I am sure.

Lullaby and good night,
By the rosy twilight,
With the moon overhead
Snuggle deep in your bed.
God will watch, never fear,
While Heaven draws near.
God will watch, never fear,
While Heaven draws near.

Go to sleep and good night,
You are safe in the sight
Of the angels who show
Christmas trees all aglow.
So to sleep, shut your eyes,
in a dream Paradise.
Go to sleep shut your eyes
In a dream Paradise.

by Karl Simrock. Music Brahms

My Aching feet, ahh, martini tray!

Not without challenge to make my way to the gala (not the least of which was slipping myself into my slinky little black dress). As can only happen on these enchanted travels, I forgot to put on any shoes but did remember the glamorous long gloves/ I also forgot the do anything with my hair but invented a quick barrette to hold my locks high up on my head with a few small twigs found along the way. Thank goodness for the excited voices and light cast by distant lanterns for helping me find my way there.
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It was a long journey and at first it seemed I was either earlier than expected (must. be the time zone factor) or perhaps I was so late that everyone had already come and gone. I stared for a while with complete exhaustion for what might have been a minute, or hours. Much like a blink and there was a gathering of the most diverse and elegant crowd of people, some familiar others strangers to me but obviously we had some prior meeting of minds though where I cannot say. I've been chatting and getting to know everyone and there seems to be no end of new persons to get to know. Have to go, the tray of martinis has arrived.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Blooming

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Ripening

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Shedding

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Twisted forest


Twisted forest
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Out of the light
into the forest
the fearful road
must be traversed
I need a hand to hold
and a lantern to find my way

Adding to Melody's presentation

From Child's Garden of Verses
All the names I know from nurse:
Gardener's garters, Shepherd's purse,
Bachelor's buttons, Lady's smock,
And the Lady Hollyhock.

Fairy places, fairy things,
Fairy woods where the wild bee wings,
Tiny trees for tiny dames--
These must all be fairy names!

Tiny woods below whose boughs
Shady fairies weave a house;
Tiny tree-tops, rose or thyme,
Where the braver fairies climb!

Fair are grown-up people's trees,
But the fairest woods are these;
Where, if I were not so tall,
I should live for good and all.

Word Performance

Change is always gonna come

I won't be contrite and say 'just go with the flow'
I'd rather say 'don't resist'

Easier said than done I know
Acceptance is key
But often the hardest thing to achieve

Finding joy and enthusiasm in the moment is difficult enough
How about when troubled times are upon us?

Change is always gonna come
There is always some good in it
Even if we can't see it now

Looking back I can see the things that happened that I would love to regret
But I stop myself from regretting
I am me because of them
I learned all my life lessons by living and experiencing them

By feeling all the pain and sadness and joy and happiness
All the people who frustrate and hate and dig and jab
They were with me for a reason and taught me many things

When I try to be too cautious about living
The change is harder to deal with

I try to be one with the moment
For that's where the true beauty in life lies
The present moment is when you are most truly you

Change is always gonna come
But maybe next time we'll be better able to accept what it brings

Long Underwear

Long underwear made with cotton
stretches
mine has enough wool mixed in
to scratch

I fold the edges tight
make a long pleat from knee to ankle

I roll the sock with care
tighten a garter until the elastic snaps
(Why do garters always lose the rubber buttons--either that
or the buttons grow hard with heat of washing
and let my stockings slip
into my moccasins)

I know the underwear shows
through my stockings--embarrassed--I strip
to nude
roll my underwear
into a ball
chuck it into the back of the cupboard
It is much better to freeze
than go to school
exposed

A Journey

She had succumbed to the Minotaur’s deadly blows, falling unconscience. When she awoke, groggy and disoriented, she found that she was in a strange new place. Her ragged clothes had been replaced with a comfortable new dress and her wounds had been tended to. A red robin with a blue beak surprised her by speaking to her:

“You have been asleep for a long time, weak from the deadly hits of the Minotaur. When I found you, you were almost dead.”

“Who sent you?”, she asked, with a quiver in her voice. She had learned early on not to trust anyone or anything. “Why were you in the grove? The Minotaur destroyed my garden, there was nothing for you.”

“I was sent to find you”, he replied.

“Who sent you?” she demanded.

The robin began to clean his feathers, gobbling up any mites he found.

“Well, then, how did I get here?”, she asked, exasperated.

“I had some help”, and that’s all that he would say. He flew up to a higher perch, turned his back to her, and continued cleaning his feathers.

Later that afternoon, after she had eaten and napped, he called to her from his perch:

“In two days time, you will leave this place, to begin a journey, to head back to your garden, your home.”

“NOOOO!”, she cried, and tears began streaming down her face. “I like it here, it’s warm and dry and safe. I will die if I have to face the Minotaur again. It will kill me.”

“Yes, dear, but this is not your home. You will have to face the Minotaur at some point. But not for a long time, I think. I will send with you a guide, a light to help you navigate the darkness, with a bit of strong magic to boot. And you will meet friends along your journey. It’s a long, long journey, with many challenges. But I will send you with this. It’s a pendant of courage. It will come in handy, when you least expect it.”

She dried her tears. She really did miss her beautiful garden, her place to call her own. She had just begun to plant and cultivate it, when the Minotaur destroyed it. She had planned to fix up the shabby shack, to make it a nice, cozy cottage. At first, she was frightened by what she might find there, but the words that the robin spoke had a soothing effect on her, and she found that she did want to go back.

Two days later, with a sturdy hazelwood walking stick, a new pair of green suede boots, her new pendant of courage, and her fairy guide, she set out on the road, a road that had never been mapped before.

This beginning of a story was written on September 13, 2000. I was in the midst of a horrible, life-sucking depression, and had just begun group therapy and counseling, as well as medication. This story was my attempt at trying to conceptualize the depression, give it a name, The Minotaur, and find something to look forward to, a journey. I found the story this morning, when I was looking through an old sketchbook that I've had for years. When I read it, I was amazed at the correlation between the journey I expected to go on then, and the journey I am about to go on now. I think I left her there, at the beginning of that road that had never been mapped, but now, 6 years later, she really is ready to get going. Oh, and I did make a pendant of courage at the time...a piece of St. John's Wort root, in the shape of a triangle, wrapped round and round in thin silver wire, with the triangle pointing up, dangling from a plain silver chain.

Baba Drama

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I am afraid Baba is a bit of a drama Queen, a wickedly out there girl who cannot miss a Gala. She has decided to do a solo of a most famous scene from Macbeth.

A dark Cave. In the middle, a Caldron boiling. Thunder.

Enter the three Witches.

1 WITCH. Thrice the brinded cat hath mew'd.
2 WITCH. Thrice and once, the hedge-pig whin'd.
3 WITCH. Harpier cries:—'tis time! 'tis time!
1 WITCH. Round about the caldron go;
In the poison'd entrails throw.—
Toad, that under cold stone,
Days and nights has thirty-one;
Swelter'd venom sleeping got,
Boil thou first i' the charmed pot!
ALL. Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn, and caldron bubble.
2 WITCH. Fillet of a fenny snake,
In the caldron boil and bake;
Eye of newt, and toe of frog,
Wool of bat, and tongue of dog,
Adder's fork, and blind-worm's sting,
Lizard's leg, and owlet's wing,—
For a charm of powerful trouble,
Like a hell-broth boil and bubble.
ALL. Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn, and caldron bubble.
3 WITCH. Scale of dragon; tooth of wolf;
Witches' mummy; maw and gulf
Of the ravin'd salt-sea shark;
Root of hemlock digg'd i the dark;
Liver of blaspheming Jew;
Gall of goat, and slips of yew
Sliver'd in the moon's eclipse;
Nose of Turk, and Tartar's lips;
Finger of birth-strangled babe
Ditch-deliver'd by a drab,—
Make the gruel thick and slab:
Add thereto a tiger's chaudron,
For the ingrediants of our caldron.
ALL. Double, double toil and trouble;
Fire burn, and caldron bubble.
2 WITCH. Cool it with a baboon's blood,
Then the charm is firm and good.

Warning!



For my performance I have decided to wear my gorgeous purple hat
and recite my favourite poem by Jenny Joseph
Warning!
When I Am An Old Woman
I shall wear purple
With a red hat which doesn't go, and doesn't suit me,
And I shall spend my pension on brandy and summer gloves
And satin sandals, and say we've no money for butter.
I shall sit down on the pavement when I'm tired
And gobble up samples in shops and press alarm bells
And run my stick along the public railings
And make up for the sobriety of my youth.
I shall go out in my slippers in the rain
And pick the flowers in other people's gardens.
And learn to spit!

Wesak Moon - Time Lapse



First sights of Wesak Moon, and though
it's full cloud cover, some glimpses
can be seen. Overall, it's a bright moon
and the evening is not so dark, even
with cloud cover thick. Pretty
amazing stuff!

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Flower Power

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

Rain

The rain is raining all around,
it rains on field and tree.
It's raining on the umbrellas here,
and on the ships at sea.

Thanks, I always wanted to get up and do that little poem, I don't remember who wrote it. I was suppose to get up on stage and say it when I was in the first grade but a case of chicken pox kept me from it. Here over forty years later I still remember it even though I don't remember anything else about that year.

Strolling Amidst Gardens in May

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Beauty is where you look to find it.
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Performance; The day after my 8th birthday.......

The day after my 8th birthday my father told me that it was time to put away my childish belief in fairies and Santa Claus, and to "look the real world in the face."

I looked him in the face and, probably for the first time in my short life, I actually saw him as he really was, approaching middle age, with a worn face, sad eyes and the hint of a paunch where his once slim waist had been. I remember thinking that if I was no longer able to believe in fairies and Santa, what could I believe in? Was the only reality the "observed" physical world? Of course I did not have the vocabulary with which to express myself so I performed my usual childs trick of bursting into tears, and throwing myself at my father bodily, shouted,
"Who is going to bring me my Xmas presents then? What happens when I lose a tooth - will the tooth fairy stop coming to visit? And anyway what about all my books that have pictures of fairies in them - are they ALL lies? Is everything a lie?"

What I really meant was - if you have been keeping the truth from me, how can I begin to believe in you now, and what can I trust? My mother continued to treat me as a child. When we visited Bodnant Gardens one early summer day she told me that if we were in a quiet part of the garden I should keep my eyes open and if I was lucky I might see a fairy there. Nevertheless, part of my child self grew up the day of my father's revalation, and I began to hide my beliefs, because as most children know and many adults forget, there is real magic in the world, and Santa does exist - theres a Santa in every store come Xmas after all!!

I began noticing other images. My child's book of bible stories contained images of beings with wings. I was told that these were angels. It was apparently not childish to believe in angels and there were different kinds of angels, some good and some bad. This I understood quite clearly, after all there were good and bad fairies. I once tried to discuss the matter of angels with my father but he told me I was confusing imagination with religion and that he would explain everything when I was older. I decided to accept that angels or fairies existed in some form and agreed to wait until I was older for a proper explanation.

When I was nine, my father grew very sick. My mother nursed him through long pain filled nights and endless misery filled days. We did not know whether my Dad would live or die. One night I awoke to hear my mother sobbing quietly and murmuring
"Don;t go dear, don't go yet , hang on please."

I climbed out of bed and stood in the doorway to their room. I saw his ashen face, her tear filled eyes, and in the corner of the room I thought I saw a tall winged figure with a dark cloak. I could not be certain of this, because I could also see the wall behind the figure.
"Its the angel of death come for my dad," I thought. The image was so powerful that I knew it to be true. I took a deep breath and shouted as loudly as I could
"Please please good fairies, I believe in you all whatever and whoever you are. Please come and help my dad who is not bad even though he must have killed a lot of you by saying you don;t exist. Please come and help us all."
I thought I heard the sound of bells ringing in the distance, the room was filled with starlight, the darkeness vanished and the dark being dissolved.

When I woke up the following morning my mother came in with a smile on her tired face.
"Your father was so ill in the night," she explained "but I think the worst is over." She looked serene.

I tiptoed into my father's room and placed my small hand into his hand.
"Good morning little angel," he said gently opening his eyes to look at me. "I had such a strange dream last night and I'm sure I heard bells ringing....When I woke up this morning I felt so much better. " He looked at me quizzically. "I thought I heard your voice shouting as well my little love." His hand reached out and he stroked my hair gently, and a smile spread over his pale face.

I don't know how or if a miracle occurred. I do know that I have always lived knowing that there is more to life than the physically observed world. Who after all can say where the line between reality and dream or illusion (or even delusion) might lie? And maybe, just maybe, the fierce love of a child for her father was enought to stay his execution that long ago night.

found poem - a new expedition



The words read:

days after
the winding path
to the
rain and
sun
impatient
and anxious
consultation
the first survey
discovered
evening.
Knapsacks
(and a blanket)
sleep on
through the wood
travels
my history
a
continued chapter
to fortune
with convoy
a good navigator
all the knowledge which I required.

::Climbs to Center Stage::

Please Hear Me Out! From your gasps it is evident that you are disturbed. I understand. This is not a performance that could have been anticipated...
I am Flash Bug.

First a disclaimer of sorts:
I am a shadow morph. You will see me only as you wish me to appear. Others will see me differently.
No gnashing of teeth please, I tell you this at the outset.

Allow me to introduce myself:

Fate interceded as it were. Cosmic rays, an illicit venture, and six mutant generations later I was debriefed, devouched, and delivered with a one-way pass and a pocket full of bills to this Far-Away Tree, this celestial outpost, a microcosm-filled and soul-fooded with a myriad of words. Landing Requests? Well, may be in a round-about, deceitful way to Heather, and from Heather was extracted. But, I was delivered to my wagon in the dark of night in a crate mark '‘Perishable Fruit-Hermitage'.’ I propelled myself in short order through the deserted night, stealthfully from wagon to wagon, examining each occupant with grave curiosity. Then with relief, stacked just outside the wagons perimeter, I spied the crates among the many others that housed my portable laboratory and cryovaults. It took little effort to stash my property well out of sight in the back of my wagon. Only when we reached the Hermitage did I stop to really contemplate my predicament hooded and cloaked as I was, many eyebrows were raised. That first night passed in the blackness of a deserted outbuilding, tucked anonymously among the flotsam and jetsam of the owner's daily life. It was both exhilarating and daunting as thoughts of the future quickly rastered through my head much as the flickering of the entry light reflected upon the walls above me.
Here, I will read my dossierier such as it is:
Complete Name: Flash Bug
Place of Birth: Test Tube
Date of Birth: Unknown
Sex: Varies
Race, Ethnic or
Tribal Group: Varies
Country/Universe of Previous Residency and
Reason for fleeing. Please Supply the Following Information for Each:
1. What happened?
2. Who caused the harm mistreatmentent or threats
(Respond in the space below):

How Disturbed Would You Be?
The Telecasts screamed out the news of my birth: '“Test Tube Monster Found in Abandoned Isolation Laboratory”'. Those who did the research were long gone and blithely unaware of the long incubation period they had set in motion. From the first I was on the lam, cutting and running with the hounds of extinction snapping at my heels; the controversial product of a bizarre competition to create new life forms. My heart is as gold as a finagler's can glow. I live by my wits and con when I must. To date, there is only one world-wide repository of disrupted mutant genomes appropriate for reimplantation. This collection is my sole property and enables me to offer a rather full complement of traits and functional behavior options.

Others' attempts to duplicate have been hampered by the inefficiency of their recombinant techniques.
While working in my modular lab I developed and honed my universally-patented Flash Technology; a laser-based nano-tubular delivery system that makes insertion discrete, specific, painless, and even reversible in the majority of cases.

The transient nature and sheer volume of traffic on this journey should provide an unending variety of clientele.
"If ya ever had the urge to reemerge, Come on in!
Funny nose, extra toes ...your a mess? Just SOS!" (couldn't resist the plug while I got your attention)

How easy it would have been to develop a siege mentality, being constantly attacked, oppressed, or isolated as I bounded and ricocheted from one place to the next; condemned it seemed to a hellish fate.

Instead, I have forged a career, capitalizing on my controversial.... my weird, chimeric, nature. All that remained was to find a stable location where I could establish my enterprise. I ask asylum here at Soul Food for this purpose alone...let history pass on the ethics...let the skeptics witness the demand for my wares...let the Foodie's Statutes apply equally; revolutionary ideas are frequently, deeply, unsettling. I do not ask for acceptance or sympathy, just for asylum.
::bows and exits::

Performance

In more than story, I walk with a staff, walking stick or cane on occasion. So, I make also them and gift them to others, normally from scratch. However, I was given a partially finished staff that had been passed down from several people, each adding there own bit of work. When an e-mail friend across the country seemed distressed and in need of ‘support’, I finished the staff and sent it to him. Someone had started to carve some dragon hands in the grooves, and I finished those as well, though I usually do not carve at all – just allow the natural hidden shapes and colors out. It was of ‘strangle-wood’ with a twisted shape formed by battle with a vine, then it is easy to cut the bark away from the inside twists for a remarkable look. Of course, I wrote a story to go along with the gift. This I share with you.

papa



By this Staff

I'd be a wantin' to tell ya 'bout this here staff.
Jes' now finishin' up with the oil 'n rubbin' down,
not tryin' to hurry or nuthin' -- but getting' on time.
My part wasn't much to tell on, no exaggeration --
fact is, what I dun whittled ain't the best part a’tall.
Don't have the soft patience ‘ner the eye neither --
not like them others what started it and loved it.

It's name is Maarishone, I be reckenen' by Shea --
kinda made up like, from the magical names of
these two ladies see -- and me bein' just me,
and them all gone and needed 'memerin' still.
What ya got here son, is legacy and dreamstuff;
and don't ferget the granddad done found it first,
back about -- well nere yer dad was born I rekkin.

I'll tell how it was told ta me, cleaned up a bit for tellin’.
Findin' this here stick was an accident, but special --
leastwise helped old Zeb offin the ridge that night,
broke leg and the wolf-wind gnawin' and rain mean.
Didn't help none he was a comin' back from the still,
or that’d been my guessin' from knowin' the fam'lies and all --
not matterin' much as they was mountain born and true.

'portant thing is, that he kept it 'round for years -- just raw.
You know, didn't let the natural call outin' the skin or nuthin’,
an' a wonder it didn't get busted up some for fire startin'.
Too big for whuppin' and too long fer stirrin' boilin' shirts.
'sides it was strangle wood and had a mind of its own --
winnin' out over that twistin' vine by claiming it and bondin’,
like maybe two blood brothers Cherokee style as one.

Well, his shack burnt up and him be in it -- don't know why,
but this stick was found sittin' on a tree bench by itself,
like he was fixin' to work on it some but was fergittin'.
His daughter spake of his askin' 'bout her broken broom
and thought fersure it woulda made a right nice handle,
and they give it to her cause a that, and cause he liked it.
Fer some folk simple things mean a lot -- and that's all right!

She started carvin' on it that winter -- snow pretty deep an' all,
and laughed 'bout lettin' the root-serpent out part way,
and whittled careful, to just remove the bark a fair bit
‘n after that, the twistin' spin kinda jumpt out ta yer eye,
what with the skin that purple gray and the inside cream
and the bark edge reddish like rust or soakin' blood
though theyen be kin to any blade and not likely slip.
Anyways, she started it and set it to be a walkin' staff,
but n'er got to use it fer dyin' of the croup that way,
and it only done enough for plan to trace and follow.
Set about for a spell, I guess -- leastwise nuthin' said,
'till her granddaughter started playin' it up again
and talking' fairie talk and likin' old stories and such,
and sayin' how the ole dead man told her what to do.

She worked it sure careful -- slow and tender like,
and hear tell she used real sand and rough deer hide
and a broken piece of file from the mill -- and her teeth!
Yup -- I ain't a sayin' it be true, but I then again might be,
fer I had to work down some strange marks 'round the top
and never could get no tool to fit in just right and quick,
so my finishin' ain't quite as good as her middle fixin'

You might be wonderin' why it fell to me -- I always did.
Guess she knew somehow it’d never be finished by her,
and knew I had a way of just doin' things 'stead of talkin',
and 'cause she caught me 'neath the moon that Solstice past
with that other staff and the old ritual I did and chanted
real purdy she said and sumthin’ 'bout it followin' through
and that I should be the one who decided when and who.


My pa made me memerize it just right ….

"Come Goddess
to this ritual of paced enchantment.
Smile Mistress of the Night
as this new staff walks a league in silence.
Embrace Mother Earth
as power draws up from nature's pulse.
Absorb the Father,
last lingering warmth of yesteryear.
Behold the ever wand
of the squire of the approaching dawn.
Strength of arm, peace of spirit,
depth of soul;
by bond conduct the song of everbe."

He said it was keltish or somethin' -- from way back.
No matter -- people just bring me staffs and I do it.
I wouldn't 'cept for this tingle-burnin' I get inside,
and the special glow in people eyes when they pass by
with one of these ol' sticks in hand and heart 'n all,
and never have to say a word but fer to smile-sing.


You ought to know that a man n'er walks with a staff alone;
meanin' made by his own hand or bought or maybe stole,
'er else that invoke thing kinda works out back-ass-erds
and ya fall inta a well or earthquake crack or rabbit hole,
and if yer lucky the staff saves ya and you gift it quick away
afore even your cousins shout and run away for fearin' --
best just get one give to ya by reason never asked ‘ner begged.

So, it was n'er meant fer me, 'ceptin to carry on the line of hands
what cut and knicked and rubbed and let the spirit out.
You figger out what them tiny hands are for you see there,
but never tell a single folk but jest walk, aknowin' and straight.
'cause the real staff is a-goin't' be inside of you, my friend –
and this be just a way of shoutin' silent to those aware
that crones and wizards done brought this home to thee.





Fair Rehearsal Moon

And the moon rose high above the
Hermitage Amphitheatre,
spotlighting L'Enchanteur
and the Travellers...

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.


The Night Is Young

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The night is young and le Enchanteur glows
radiant, filled with joy
as the old amphitheatre echoes
with the sound of
fresh, new, familiar old
voices
as Travelling Trevere
one by one
stand under the spotlight and
perform at the Gala night
held to mark
the beginning of a new journey.

Hermes Red - Imogen Rehearses For The Queen


The time is ripe - the time is rare, - to dance among
the berries there, in Autumn when the colour
is rich. I stand among the ruins still, and take
my call to the Rainbow Serpent Queen. I
hold a bright tapestry up as a gift to her,
struck by her art of change, a homage,
barely perceivable in the huge space
of the arena. The trees are losing their
golden leaves, to feed the earth, and
nourish her again in turns. The cycle
is giddying, yet safe and sound, eternal
and evermore, berry ripe. I spin
around in a circle, grasping at the ears
of grain heaped in rows,
and rows by the harvested earth.
The moon is almost full.
Homage:
Though not always known,
I am thankful for it,
Though sometimes forgetting of mind,
I am thankful for it,
Though not always felt,
I am thankful for it.
It never leaves, it never goes, the
colours, the cycle,
shows.
In spite of being curtailed, in spite
of unworthy or illicit sacrifice, still
the ruby burns. Like a match head,
it strikes into a ball of coloured
flames.
Grateful to be bowing to the
Queen...
copyright Imogen Crest 2006.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Mothers & daughters

So many daughters cry
so many mothers cry
for what?

Mean words spoken
cannot be taken back

When all they want
is a tender word
a thoughtful glance

Why can’t mothers let go
why can’t daughters let go
forgive past sins

Why can’t they just hold hands
with gentle respect for one another

Let me set my own tempo
you set your own too
and dance

Daughters want their own way
mothers want their own way
sinking fast

All I want for you is simple
let us talk like friends

Be at peace to find
the loving center
within

Colors

I'll begin.......Ahem.....

Colors

Your words color my world with blues and grays
and I say “Why can’t it be yellows and reds?
Why can’t it be the color of a daisy’s face,
or fresh lemonade, or kids’ slickers on a wet day?
Why can’t it be the color of passion,
of ripe, fleshy fruit, or moistened lips parted
ever so slightly?”

Your voice shadows my world with blues and grays
as your words thud with steely finality against my ears:
“I-DON’T-LOVE-YOU.”
Now the reds and yellows that once splashed
across the walls of my world melt and slide,
not into the color of tangerines,
or maples leaves on a bright autumn day,
or the glow of embers on a hearth,

But into the darkness of my bedroom ceiling on a winter morning,
into the slate gray of the sea before a storm,
into the worn-out blue of an urban sky at midnight,
dissolving into the blue-gray pallor of a pearl
that has lost its luster
.

L Gloyd (c) May 10, 2006

Performances at the Amphitheatre Begin

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le Enchanteur has taken on a Spanish Dancer guise and performs for the audience who have gathered at the Hermitage Amphitheatre, a gala night prior to a new, exciting journey along the Serpentine Road. Watch this space as other travellers step into the spotlight.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Vi's Japanese Lily Pond - Lovely Story Below

~ Lily Pond - Hermitage ~

Monday, May 08, 2006

Singin' the Blues to the Moon


Coyote Girl is restless tonight so she is singin' the blues to the moon.


LGloyd (c) 2006. "Coyote Girl" was created in Terragen and enhanced in Photoshop 7.

Of Heart and Hand

I am never busier that when ambling along a mountain trail – alone. Had I a companion, we would by natural bond interact – pointing out sights of interest, planning the next meal, or adding new rows and colors to an earlier tapestry of discourse. Our focus is drawn to the narrow reach of shared experience, and we are better for it; for we learn best through reflection of thought with another. To be present for another is a hard won attribute, however, for we must then exclude all else – or in our frailty, much of the wonder about us. I choose to walk this path unencumbered by the demands of friendship. Now I can greet strangers with full heart and hand.

A shaft or morning sun has told a mossy log that its time has come. With the swirling mist released in glee, tiny motes of pollen, spores and powdered essence of tree, churn upward in a golden dance, which I by chance have time to see. I wave my hand as if releasing a butterfly, knowing that this silent breeze will distort the amber symphony – and by my passing some of the ancient tree’s rebirth prayer will fall on different ground – and I will be remembered. I place a whistled tune in the bole of a willow tree where another traveler might find it and appreciate it more by the mystery of source – not recognizing it as song, but only as a feather touch of spirit.

Ah yes.


A single step completed – and I am on my way.

Late arrival

Although I try to hide the fact I am not really much of a traveller. Given the choice I would much rather sit at home and read or craft or even - and I blush to admit this - play jigsaws and sudoku online. But, the idea of this journey intrigued me, and I decided to throw caution to the wind, put on my walking shoes, and set off in this direction.

I sit in the ruins awhile. I love ruined buildings, relics of previous generations, fingerprints of the past. My favourite ruins are those of old abbeys and here in England we have spectacular ruins. If you check them online you will understand the fascination they hold for me. My own favourite ruin is Fountains Abbey in Yorkshire, standing in beautiful grounds, white stone originally constructed a thousand or more years ago. There is a feeling of something sacred in the space where worship has been conducted for so long, even though I myself do not worship in a conventional way. I love old churches for the same reason, and even the plain unadorned rooms used by Quakers. I like t0 " worship" in places of natural beauty where I feel in touch with the spirit of the earth, Gaia if you will, for that is where my heart soars in rapture.

Whilst sitting in the ruins I contemplate the reason for this journey. It has been my unspoken desire to write for so many years. I have so many stories to tell, but they are not fantastic stories, they are stories about my life. Sometimes they are sad, sometimes they are humourous, always they are about the battle I have had with a difficult and sad childhood. Maybe on this journey I can find a voice with which I can tell my story - that is what I am hoping to do anyway!!

For today, though, a short poem will have to suffice.



I watch the sun go down
drowning in a crimson sea
Late gulls wheel in the air,
calling with melancholy voices.

The light fades, the air chills
I shiver slightly, lean back against the old stone,
and listen to the breathing tide -
hush shush hush shush.

I may sleep on the beach tonight
Safe with you by my side
Your face turns to mine, luminous with love.
I glow in its light.

A Summary

This is just a summary of my experiences these last few weeks gleaned from my travel journal......

Arrived at Riversleigh Manor and had a confrontation with Arvilla, my Inner Critic, whom I bounced out.

Spent a few days resting at the Manor reflecting on its healing waters, searching for my personal mythos, and trying on red shoes and gypsy underwear.

Quickly left Riversleigh Manor for the Land of Stones and caught up with the travellers heading for the House of the Rainbow serpent. (I spent a few days alongside the Streams of Mnemosyne and dowsing for inner gold).

Had a vision of the Serpent Priestess and heard the voice of Wisdom.

Battled thieving pixies during my first night with the caravan. Learned to fly.

Arrived at the Hermitage where I have danced and made poetry.

Awaiting the departure for the next port-of-call......

L. Gloyd, May 8, 2006

The Frog and the Lily Pad

I was sitting beside the Japanese pool in the Hermitage gardens, when I was privy to a magical event—a frog in conversation with a lily pad—now, who ever heard of such a thing?

The Frog and the Lily Pad

“Good Morning, Lady Millicent Mist,” said Samuel Sun, one bright, spring morning.

“Why good morning, Sir Samuel,’ replied Millicent.

Millicent was in a wonderful mood this morning and didn’t really want to leave the pond, which was magical in the morning light. Her presence added a sense of mystery as she danced lightly over the water, which reflected green from the surrounding trees and shrubs.

“Will you do me the honor, Lady Millicent, of dancing with me this morning?”

Now Millicent knew only too well that dancing with Samuel Sun would cause her to dissipate in his warm embrace and that she would not be able to return to the pond until the next morning, when once again she could tip toe between the lily pads, play hide and seek among the shrubs, and rise seductively into the branches above. But, she could not resist Sir Samuel’s invitation to dance. She knew that no matter what, he always got his way with her and that she always felt wispy when she danced with him.

“Why, I…” She wrapped herself into a delicate spiral, and blushed a little pink in his light. “Why, Sir, I do believe I will.”

Millicent felt light headed as Sir Samuel wrapped his rays around her and, together, they floated through the tree branches in a lovely, choreographed display of light and shadow as Sun’s rays mingled with her silk-like form.

They twirled in a soft and silent ballet until Millicent faded away in Sun’s golden embrace. Soon, she was gone.

“Lovely, lovely,” cheered Lady Lily Pad who resided in the pond and chatted with Millicent whenever she visited.

“Thank you, Lily Pad.” Millicent’s voice was distant, no more than a whisper.

“Good Bye, Millicent,” said Lily Pad. “Do visit the pond again soon.”

“I will.”

Lily Pad could barely hear Millicent now and could not see her, but she knew that she was not far away—that she was more than likely dancing around the light house where she could tease Samuel Sun by hiding behind Brother Fog. Soon though, Samuel would chase him off and then he would dance with Millicent again before she retired into the drawing room of her day. It was there that she would stitch her pearl and silver gown together again, ready to visit the pond on the morrow.

* * *

“Ribit … ribit.”

“Is that you, Fillipe Frog?”

“Ribit. Yes, it is, Lily Pad.” Fillipe landed on a large, floating leaf next to where Lily Pad resided. In doing so, he splashed minute drops of pond water onto Lily’s still partially closed petals.

“Do be careful, Fillipe. I shall be upset if my petals droop because of your splashing about.”

“Ribit…ribit.”

“What’s the matter, Fillipe, do you have a frog in your throat?” Lily giggled shyly.

“If that is supposed to be funny,” Fillipe said, “I am not amused.”

“Where’s your sense of humor?” Lily asked, stretching her petals toward the warming sun.

“Just isn’t funny, that’s all.”

Fillipe, jumped onto a platform of reeds so that he could face Lily. “And what’s with Millicent going through that ballet routine with Old Samuel every morning--makes a fool of herself if you ask me. He just dances with her so he can send her away.”

Lily frowned as best she could, being a lily pad and all. “Fillipe, you’re a grouch this morning, more so than usual. What’s your problem?”

“Ribit…ribit.”

“Frog in your throat…”

“Cut that out, Lily. I’m worried, and you don’t take me seriously at all.”

“Is there something you’d like to tell me?” Lily asked, turning her creamy white petals toward Filippe, so as to give him her full attention, “Tell me what’s bothering you?”

“Ribit…You’ll just laugh.”

“No, I won’t. I promise.”

“All right then.”

“Well, go on.”

“All right already. What’s bothering me is that nobody loves me.”

“What?” Lilly frowned her best lily pad frown, which is hard to do with petals and all. “That’s not true and you know it.”

“I don’t know it, Lily.” Fillipe paused to expand his throat. “Every day people visit the garden and the pond and they ooh and aah over you and your friends, they delight in the way light and shadow paint the pond, and they gaze lovingly at the shrubs and trees, but they don’t even notice me. I want someone to notice me,”

“Little boys love you,” Lily said, in a most kindly tone.

“Little boys are beasts, Lily. They’re so rough. They stick me in their pockets and use me to frighten their mothers and their sisters. Then, sometimes they forget to bring me back to the pond right away and I get all dried out and sick. A couple of times I almost croaked.”

Lily raised a petal. “Croaked?” She stifled a giggle.

“That’s right,” said Fillipe, “croaked, died, passed away, you know what I mean.”

“Yes, I know what you mean.”

Fillipe jumped back onto the leaf.

“Watch your splashing, please.”

“Ribit…ribit. “Yeah yeah, I’m sorry, but a little splash isn’t going to hurt you.”

“Now, Fillipe, you were saying?”

“I almost croaked a couple of times from drying out. That’s what happened to Ham, you know.”

Lily frowned. “Ham?”

“Yeah. Hammer Toad. He was my distant cousin. They tortured him something fearful, then they let him dry out. When they threw him back in the water, it was too late. He was gone. So young, too.”

“I’m sorry, Fillipe. And I’ll admit that sometimes little boys are thoughtless, not all of them, just some. But I’m sure there are little girls that love you.”

“Ribit…ribit. Little girls are afraid I’ll give ‘em warts.”

Lily snickered.

“Don’t laugh. I’m serious.”

“I’m not making fun,” Lily said, stretching her petals again, opening them wide. “That’s just an old wives tale. Little girls these days are more enlightened.”

Their familiar bantering was interrupted by a chorus of childish voices, as a group of children led by their teacher came around the corner, on the path that circled the pond.

“Such a clatter,” said Fillipe, preparing to launch himself into the shadows.

“No, don’t go. Stay and listen to what they’re saying.”

“I don’t want to hear—”

“You’ll want to hear this, Fillipe Frog, so you stay right here and listen.”

“Look,” said the teacher, “there’s a perfect specimen, on that leaf next to that lovely water lily.

“Where, where,” replied a chorus of little voices.

“Right there.” The teacher pointed to Fillipe. “Isn’t he a handsome little fellow?”

“Huh? What are they doing, pointing like that?”

“Shut up and listen,” said Lily, who was by now getting tired of Fillipe’s negative outlook.

“Ribit…ribit.”

“See there” said the teacher, who's pretty blonde hair war ruffled by an unexpected breeze, “how his throat bulges when he croaks.”

“What do you mean, croaks? I ain’t croaking, not as long as a pretty young thing like you keeps looking me over.”

“Shush,” said Lily, “I want to hear, too.”

“That little fellow is what we call an amphibian.” The teacher had dropped to one knee so that she was on a level with her attentive pupils who clustered around her. “His kind make up the order Anura, which you will be learning about later, in class.”

Her remarks were followed by a chorus of oohs and aahs.

Fillipe, stretching to his full potential, leapt gracefully into the air and landed perfectly on a floating patch of reeds near the path, and the action.

“Show off,” muttered Lily.

“What’s the matter, Lily, are you jealous because I’m the center of attention?”

“Why don’t you just go soak your head?”

“Green with envy, are you?”

“Not at all, Fillipe. I have purpose in life.”

“And what would that be, Lily?”

“For one thing, I add color and beauty to the pond. And let us not forget that I allow your kind to attach your eggs to my stems.”

“Okay, you’ve made your point. Now if, you’ll shush so I can hear what the pretty, blonde human is saying.”

“So children, frogs are an important part of wetland habitat.”

“Oh, see now, Lily, I missed most of what she was saying.”

“She said you were important to the ecosystem…that should make you happy.”

“I am…I AM! But I’m not loved.”

One little girl, whose hair hung in ringlets of pure gold, stepped closer to the edge of the pond. “Here Froggy. I’m Anna. What is your name?”

“Fillipe, pronounced Fill Leap.”

Anna turned to her teacher. “I just love him and I’m going to study frogs when I grow up.”

Lily was sure that Fillipe’s green skin turned a lovely shade of pink.

“Then,” said the teacher to Anna, “you’ll have to become a herpetologist.”

“That’s what, I’ll do. I’ll be a hertol—”

“Herpetologist, Anna, herp-e-tol-o-gist.”

Anna repeated the word twice, excitedly.

“I’m going to save the planet, said Peter, a redhead and the tallest in the class.”

“Me, too, said John, a freckled face kid with thick glasses.”

“Very good, boys,” said the pretty teacher.

“I’m going to protect the environment,” said Jeannie, a lovely, oriental child with long black hair.”

“And me,” said Robbie, “I’m going to save the rain forests.”

“I can see that I’m going to be hearing a lot about all of you when you grow up,” said the teacher, getting to her feet and counting heads to make sure she hadn’t lost anyone. “It’s time to get back to the bus.”

* * *

“Well, Lily, what do you think of that?”

“I think that you are loved and that you should be very happy.”

“I am. I’m loved—I’m loved—I’m loved,” Fillipe said, as he leapt, quite gracefully for a frog, from one leaf to another before disappearing into the shadows at the other end of the pond..

Now he’ll be harder than ever to live with, thought Lily, sighing as she stretched her petals again, and settled down for a relaxing day in the sunshine.

Vi Jones
©May 8, 2006.

The Hermitage - Ruins and Follies




Around the Hermitage there are numerous ruins and follies,
perfect for rehearsing performances, and they are
everywhere, so one per person, so to speak. In the old
books in the library are some interesting facts on follies:
The ones around the Hermitage are both real and man-
made, depending on the era of the day. Always at
the Hermitage the seasons happen at once. Wander
through autumn leaves, marvel at spring flowers,
as everything is always in season.


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

The Avatar

The Avatar

I am watching you
from the high grass,
from under your house,
I have roamed the deserts and plains,
your streets and yards,
I was here before yo
u
and will outlast you all,
I am a nurturing moth
er,
a faithful lover
that sings to the heavens,
You could not kill me
even when I killed your cats,

I blend into your world,
transforming, confou
nding,
I cast the stars into space,
and stole fire from
the gods,
I am the Trickster,
I am the Avatar
of the creative spirit,

you cannot close me in,
I am Coyote.











Poem and Image: L. Gloyd (c)May 7, 2006.

There were obstacles, thus I am late to arrive. Disoriented, I sought a foothold and found Leonie Bryant…

Leonie's Arrival At The Hermitage - August 2005

….I read her words, viewed her art, and listened to the tributes of her friends.

Then, she said:
Seeds of wisdom are planted in all, and are ready to germinate when they are able to understand and receive this wisdom.

…and I cried.

Seeking Shangri-La

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In a fertile valley called Shangri-La, beyond the western-Himalayas, a group of coloured pavilions cling to the hillside. In this idyllic setting lives a perfect artistic community. There are no strict rules and the creative people live in peace and harmony. The valley is so remote that only a few have been able to find it.

Le Enchanteur is leading a new Journey of the Heart, along the Serpentine Road towards Shangri-La. The first base is at the Hermitage where travellers will have time to prepare for the long journey, a journey that will take them to The House of the Serpents, The Lodge of the Rainbow Serpent Priestess, Baba Yaga's and many more exciting places.

For the Journey -- a slight story

The Traveled Road

I am known by many names, but ‘Stir’ will serve. In these quiet days of new grass, I travel only from night-fire to glad-fire – seeking a shared meal and stories of wonder, such being the special gift of travelers. This day’s trek will be short, methinks – for aching joints tell of conniving rain and sudden swelling streams. Such a joy to walk in the songs of rain.

There are many branches in the trail ahead, but I will choose the ‘more traveled’ one, for that is where the work is! My scars and mirth tell of the many ‘less traveled’ sojourns of my past, but now I have fain confidence to walk in the ruts of throng and see what was missed or discarded or ignored by most. Besides, there will be need of my sturdy arm and healing pouch in the flooded defiles ahead that will test the foolish. Ah, the enchanting smell of yearning loam welcoming the first pounding drops -- drumbeat thunder and castanet applause from branch and leaf and stone. Breathe! There is a cleft ‘neath an overhang of rock ahead. The branches gathered under my cloak will need protection more than I. I may not build a fire, but can leave the fuel for one who will come later. Why do many seek food only when they are hungry, and sticks after it begins to rain? Simple mysteries. A stranger approaches!

There was a time in my youth where I might have appraised the man, giving full measure to beliefs and trained fears. After all, his dress speaks of an unfamiliar land; his stance suggests a bladed under his coat; his countenance of missed meals. His practiced eye notes my staff and preparation – also aware there is no other shelter near by. Aye, by belief alone I would be wary. Internally I smile – appraising what I know to be true. Here walks a fellow messenger of Light, close holding a spark perhaps more profound than mine. There stands one with experience beyond mine, who possibly has answers to questions I have never asked. He comes from where I must now go.

Upon a small rock I place a crust of bread, unwrap a chunk of cheese and set out a smallish bag of salt. A cup is already musically gathering drops from a fir-branch fountain. No words are needed, but by gesture I learn that he has nothing to share – not necessary for me, but obviously important to him. I nod, then point to the flute hanging from his belt.

My footsteps are a little lighter now, easily dodging the pools and slippery stones. Behind me strides a man who will someday help another – of this I surly know. Ahead of me lies a land where music lays close to the soul – where sorrow and joy are blended in song. He has a full belly, and I a replenished heart. This is the faire trade of strangers – travelers on the common road – the one most traveled by.

Green Cathedral

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

L'Enchanteur, Glasses, And The Sea

copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Among the Ruins


Le Enchanteur has inspired me by her trip to the ruins....

Among the Ruins

When I think of ancient ruins, I think of those in other parts of the world, not the American Southwest; however, I was astonished one day, a number of years ago, when, on a lonely stretch of road in northern Arizona, we stumbled across the Wupatki ruins, a series of apartment-like dwellings estimated to be about 900 years old. Constructed of sandstone masonry on a plateau about fifty miles from the Grand Canyon, these dwellings may have sheltered as many as 30,000 people at one time. These buildings were probably inhabited by the Anasazi and Sinagua peoples, though no one really knows for sure. Similarly, no one is sure why these communities were abandoned, but it is hypothesized that an eruption of the nearby Sunset Crater volcano around 1100 c.e. drove the inhabitants out of the area.

On the day we came across the ruins, it was bright, sunny, and such a glorious morning that we decided to stretch our legs and take a look around. The older folks in our party decided to just sit and view the ruins; I decided to go hiking around one of the larger buildings (at the time there was no prohibitions about entering the structures).

After a while, the sun got the better of me and I decided to duck into one of the rooms inside the structure. As I stood in the cool darkness, I chanced to look up through a window near the top of the room. I could see brilliant blue with tuffs of white clouds drifting across the opening.

As I savored the moment, a strange and sudden feeling overcame me. I felt that I wasn’t alone any longer. I didn’t hear anything and as I swung around to look about the small room, all I could see was a barren dirt floor and nothing more. I continued to stand there, the feeling getting stronger with each passing moment. I stepped outside the doorway of the room to see if there was anyone else nearby. The closest tourists were way down the path, too far away to be the source of the sensation. I took one more look around the room and quickly left.

The feeling of being watched left me as soon as I found my group and headed back to the parking area. I didn’t mention my experience to anyone, but I pondered this odd sensation. I honestly felt as if, not one, but many people were watching me in that room. Not given to much belief in the paranormal, I chalked it up a flight of imagination brought on by being in such an old and mysterious place.

However, in a country where sometimes historical edifices are knocked down in the name of progress, perhaps I was feeling the presence of the Ancient Ones. If so, I hope they were pleased that I stopped by to pay homage to their memory.

Text and photo: L Gloyd © May 6, 2006

Diamond Willow Staff



His and her staffs I crafted for Em and self

DIAMOND OF MY SOUL

Every man has by choice or chance walked with wooden staff in hand. This act may only have lent strength or power. It may have acted as a simple conduit to the nurturing earth and brought a heightening awareness of sound, aroma or stirring of air. It may, though, have been a mystic link to childhood memories or fantasies of "Little John" or a wandering medieval bard. On rare occasion it served as a divining rod to the soul!

Every human spirit is grounded in both heaven and earth, but sees neither clearly. The soul is a wanderer and seeker, restless and eager. The draw of heavenly peace is strong, but the covenant of "free will" presses us fearfully into human obligation and adventure. Is it possible that the words "render unto Caesar" have less to do with worldly goods than of man's obligation to live life on earth to the fullest and use faculties of intelligence and wit to best avail? I grasp my staff in wonder, seeking help and support.

It would be easy to say that today it is enough to let the measured thump of walking stick guide me through a glade of awakening sights and smells. Who can doubt the presence of God in such a green-lush and quivering cathedral? A moment of prayer and thanks? Of course. A lavish bed for a brief nap? Ah, could it be; but I dare not allow moss and vine overgrow my purpose. But I will sit awhile.

Every man should have a stick such as this. It is made of diamond willow from the starkest range of Alaska. The harsh elements restrict its growth to only inches a year and it has no growth rings, its life one continuous striving for survival. The balance of midnight sun and noonday blizzard force twist and scars along each branch. There is nothing about the bush that would appeal to the causal eye. But God will has done the basic work. The practiced hand, guided by instinct or cunning, cuts down a special branch. The ugly, gnarled shaft is buried in the earth for two years to allow the frost to strip off the bark and erode the weaker pith. The nubile staff is then scraped and rubbed with sand and ice. Then the emerging gift is buffed with leather and polished with fleece. As the oil penetrates the pores and pits of the wood it comes alive. A miracle has occurred that is a combination of man's and God's hand.

Consider the result. The outer skin of pale cream is strong enough to support my weight but is soft and warm to the touch. It is a serviceable layer that protects the vulnerable inner cores. In much this way a person protects their "real self" with a layer of education, manners, protocols, facades and "hardened realism" called experience. In several areas, large and small, the dynamic inner fabric shows through. These "pits" are diamond shaped and may be quite deep. The exposed color is rich in hues of red, brown, orcre, rust and scarlet. On my stick there is a very long exposed rift that cuts deep to the core. This rich area of color and softer material might represent the "inner self" of values, beliefs and judgements that are occasionally allowed to show through to the harsh world. Of course, this leads to vulnerability and scarring and erosion of value. Down the center of the shaft is a small, very strong white core. In most sticks this is not visible. On mine, due to the large rift in the inner structure, it shows through plainly. This core is true faith and understanding. I value my stick because it is exposed.

Thus each stick of Diamond Willow can represent an individual. Its growth, development and perfection required hard work and patience. There is a central soul, a surrounding level of self, and an outer layer of persona. In some people only the outer shell is visible. In most, parts of their values and beliefs are visible. One tragedy of life is that the more a person opens up themselves to the world, the more beautiful they become, but more easily harmed.

Whenever you see a person with a Diamond Walking Stick, study it, caress it. Take time to sit down and listen to a story or two. The stick can bond your two souls together.

le Enchanteur is at the Hermitage

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Le Enchanteur has gone ahead and has already arrived at the Hermitage and can be seen here relaxing with Imogen Crest, the Hermit who is the caretaker of the Lemurian Hermitage. They are plotting and scheming, planning the big night when travellers present something at the Hermitage amphitheatre. If you look back at the Hermitage archives you will find others have rehearsed here too.


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le Enchanteur managed to find time to go to the old folly, the natural ruins on the beach and sat listening to the wind and the sea, looking at the world through her special tinted glasses.

The remainder of us will have to navigate our way through those rainbow coloured mountains. It is not very far as the crow flies and you can get here quickly if you have a pair of winged shoes. But whatever you do, don't let anyone have the bag filled with precious things. Be assured that you will need them.


Friday, May 05, 2006

Banging My Zills

I have discovered that some of my traveling companions love to dance and so I am sharing this story with them......

Banging My Zills: An Adventure in Belly Dance

"So what's so funny about learning to belly dance?" I told a friend who laughed out loud when I told her about my plans. Several years ago, I decided that I wanted to learn to belly-dance. I have always loved to watch people dance, but I was always too self-conscious to get out on the floor and dance myself, especially now that I am middle-aged and have packed on some extra “baggage in the rear.” Reactions from friends and family to the announcement of this endeavor varied from person to person, but most fell into the category of "you've got to be kidding!" In spite of the nay-sayers, the desire to explore the creative act of dance was too much for me to ignore, and after some research, I located an inexpensive belly dance class at a local adult night school.

On the first night of the class, I arrived before anyone else. I had struggled over what to wear. What does one wear to a belly dance class? I had already made up my mind that I was NOT under any circumstances showing my navel! I finally decided on wearing a dance leotard and sweat pants for the first class.

As I waited in the dance studio, other students began arriving. The first to enter was a petite blonde in a tight T-shirt. She strutted into the studio with considerable jiggle. A mild pang of apprehension caught me in the stomach. A few minutes later, a second student arrived, a young brunette in shorts so taut you could ricochet a coin off her butt. Great, I thought, I'm going to be surrounded by a bunch of skinny teenagers. Next, a well-groomed woman and an adolescent who I assumed was her daughter entered the room in matching designer exercise suits. At this point, I think I groaned aloud. I felt so out of place in my grungy sweat pants, and I wondered how bulgy I looked in my leotard. What was I thinking!

As panic began to work its way through my mind, I looked for a discrete way to make a speedy departure. Before I could act, a laughing, boisterous group of women entered the room. The group was comprised of several middle-aged women, a few of them women of ample endowment. I relaxed a little.

In a few minutes, the studio had filled with seventeen women of various ethnicities, sizes, ages, and attire. A woman about my age sat on the floor next to me. She had on a flowing dance skirt and several brass and silver bangles on each wrist. As we waited, I tried to imagine what the instructor would be like. I envisioned a sultry, middle-eastern woman, gracefully gliding into the room. That image evaporated when a small, muscular woman with a blond ponytail enthusiastically bounced into the studio and introduced herself as Leela, our instructor. She looked more like a Nebraskan cheerleader than a belly dancer. At first, I was a little disappointed with her bicycle shorts and tank top, but after she took care of some registration details with the class, she reached into a plastic grocery bag and pulled out a silk scarf with a leopard-skin pattern covered with hundreds of small gold beads and coins. The coins loudly jingled as she tied the scarf around her hips. Immediately, the cheerleader was gone and woman of elegance and gracefulness stood before us.

She quickly called the class to order, punched a button on her cassette player, and began a series of slow belly dance moves designed to warm us up. We did some head slides and snake arms (ala I Dream of Jeannie), rib circles and belly rolls (neither of these having anything to do with barbecues or bakeries), and some hip bumps and shimmies, all to the slow, rhythmic beat of a middle-eastern drum.

As a result of my having studied and practiced tai chi chuan for many years, I was very adept at imitating the instructor's movements. In spite of this, I felt uncomfortable watching my moving image in the mirror. I found myself comparing my movements to those of my classmates.

Then I noticed something. Most of the younger, more athletic women had pained grimaces on their faces as they struggled to follow the instructor's movements. One of them stopped the movements altogether and muttered "I can't do this!" Then I looked over at the older, more ample women. A few obviously had experience with the movements but the rest struggled as the others did, trying to complete the movements with ease and precision. Yet all of them had smiles on their faces, laughing and joking with each other when they fell out of time with the music or when their bodies completed a movement in some outlandish manner. They didn't seem bothered by the fact that they were not doing the movements "perfectly." They seemed in tune with their bodies. They were having fun.

After the warm-ups Leela went over the plan for the class and announced that next week we could purchase our zills and have them fitted. "You don't want to go losing a zill when you bang them in front of an audience, " she quipped. Zills? Whatever they are, I'm sure not going to bang MINE in front of anybody! The woman with the bangles seated next to me, noting my quizzical look, leaned over and whispered: "Zills-- finger cymbals. It's great when we all practice then together. What a racket we make!"

The instructor continued. "I'll be taking orders next week for hip scarves for anyone who wants to buy one. In the meantime I have a few here that you can borrow for today." I hesitated for a moment, but then walked over to the plastic bag with a few of my classmates. There were a variety of scarves: purple silks with gold coins, green with iridescent bugle beads, turquoise triangles with sequins. I selected a simple black silk scarf with hundreds of silver beads and coins. I watched how the others tied theirs on and followed suit. Then I looked in the mirror and smiled. I did a brief hip shimmy. The silver coins made a pleasant jingle. The brunette in the tight shorts said, "That looks great on you." She turned to the instructor. "I'd like to place an order for one like hers." I did another shimmy and couple of hip bumps. The bangled woman chirped: "Honey, you oughta have those hips registered as lethal weapons!"

Leela reconvened the group to teach us some basic moves for a routine that we would be learning during the rest of the course. After teaching us a basic walk, she demonstrated a simple spin and urged us to follow along: "Keep your hands open! Drop your shoulders! Keep your eyes fixed on a point in the room so you don't get dizzy." I slowly began turning in place. I reached out my arms and unclenched by fists. As I picked up speed, I felt like I was flying through the air. My whole body relaxed and I melted into the music.

Suddenly, I felt a sharp pain in my chest and I almost lost balance.

"I am SO sorry!" exclaimed the woman next to me. She had hit me in the chest with one of her outstretched, bangle-encrusted arms. "Are you alright?"

"Yes," I replied, rubbing the spot where she had clobbered me.

"You're going to have a bruise, though. This sort of thing happens sometimes. You have to develop a sense of humor about it. Your spin was really great, though. I'm sorry I messed it up."

"Thanks, it's okay."

The instructor walked us through a few cool down exercises and then dismissed class. As I gathered my things, the bangled woman said: "Oh, by the way, my name is Rosie. Will you be in class next week?"

"Hi, Rosie. My name is Lori," and to my surprise I responded enthusiastically, "Yes, I'll be in class next week."

"Great, Lori, see you then," she called as she walked out the door.

Before I untied my borrowed hip scarf, I looked once more in the mirror , shimmied, and smiled.

Text and Image: L Gloyd © May 5, 2006
Postscript: After studying belly-dance for a couple of years, I injured my back (moving furniture) and had to stop. Perhaps someday, I’ll pick it up again.



Welcome Travellers!

As you approach over the rise through
the trees you will see the Hermitage,
and your room will be waiting for you.
You will know it instantly, with the
covers of the bed drawn back,
fresh with lavender sprigs and every
luxury for the weary traveller.
Your window will have a
brilliant view, and you will see
the hospitality never ends, as the
kitchen is open 24 hours a day. There is
a cypress tree grove by the sea, an
enchanted garden, and loads of rehearsal space as well...
Welcome from the Hermitage Regions.

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Precious Memory - Leonie Bryant

Memory lives the longest.
Seek what you will, have what
you might, love who you will,
do what you will,
but memory lives the longest.
Memory is important,
good memories soothe the soul,
and are no less real than anything
else on earth...remember.



Remember, memory lasts
the longest. Memory is kept close
to the heart. Memory lives
the longest. Do not forget.
Leonie will never be forgotten,
now or forever. She will always
be remembered...

(with love, Monika - Imogen Crest - Hermitage)

She Oak Regeneration - Eternal Mystery

She Oak Pollenation
She Oak And Salty Companion
copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Healing Glades



copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Sacred Lilies Dancing - Remember Leonie Bryant


copyright Monika Roleff 2006.

Monday, May 01, 2006

Lights for Leonie Bryant